Here's your problem Moon, as I see it, You're afraid of losing what you have, your health care and SS benefits. I believe you already stated this in another post, your feelings about looking out for yourself and admitting you were selfish, etc.. And you want things to stay the same as long as your alive, no changes while you're still here, that's your main concern, as long as your covered forget about "everyone else" kind of mentality. Fine, look out for yourself, that's human instinct, however, I will do what is in my best interest also, and quite frankly, and consequently its a noble act, I want health care for everyone, not just me. I think it is the right thing for everyone. You're afraid of losing what you have so you jump away from any possible changes, Thats how I see it.
But you go do what you do, and protect your interests, its obvious that's what you're doing. Think about yourself, what will effect you. That's Ok, and I understand it.
Now don't fly off the handle becuase I am being straight forward, stay calm headed if you can. :)